Somebody told me this is the place, where everything is better, and everything is safe

I’m not sure I want to (or could) explain what brought up this line of thought, but I must write about it, even just to get it out.

Do you ever have those days when you honestly feel that the people in your life deserve someone better than you? And not just your significant other or your boyfriend/girlfriend, but your friends and family and the people that you interact with?

I had one of those days today. It doesn’t happen often, as I’m usually pretty good at seeing the value of the things that I do. But today, I felt pretty useless and found it hard not to think that those around me deserved someone other than me in whatever capacity I serve for them. It’s funny when you go through an entire day considering the repercussions of not existing and of having never become a part of someone else’s life.

It has nothing to do with being depressed or feeling down, I’m just having one of those days where nothing seems to be enough, or nothing is quite as perfect as I’d like it to be. I have a pretty high opinion of the people that I surround myself with, and I guess sometimes with that comes the feeling like I’m not doing well enough by them. I dunno. I guess I don’t make much sense tonight.

I’m okay, and that’s the truth. I feel like maybe I should go for a jog or something, though. Just get the blood pumping and work through whatever it is that’s recycling back and forth in my head.

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