Isn’t it amazing that a little piece of music can force you to remember a part of your life, almost as if the two are linked?
I’m sitting here listening to the song “Name” by The Goo Goo Dolls, and wondering about my friend Heather from many years ago. It’s late, pushing 1am, and I keep having visions and thoughts about her that won’t go away. It’s simultaneously heartbreaking and comforting.
Funny how much has changed in the last three or four years. She had an amazing effect on my life, and that’s something I’ll never forget. I read a poem she wrote about me, called “An Ode to Andy”, and have to laugh a little… it all still applies. All of it. Even almost 7 years later.
Sigh.
She’s gone now, or I’m gone, or whatever you want to call it. I’m not sure anymore. It all seems pointless now, anyway.
I had a rough day today. I won’t go in to details, but it was just… incredibly hard, and I’m feeling very alone and more lost than usual. I wish I could sleep, but sometimes we just can’t have what we want the most.